“they fully embraced vulnerability. They believe that what made them vulnerable made them beautiful. They didn’t talk about vulnerability being comfortable, nor did they really talk about it being excruciating. They just talked about it being necessary. They talked about the willingness to say ‘I love you’ first. The willingness to do something when there are no guarantees. The willingness to invest into a relationship that may or may not work out. They thought this was fundamental.”
– Brené Brown, The Power of Vulnerability
She’s not wrong. Vulnerability is important. It is necessary. Because even when I know I’m going to fail, I still have to try. Ripping your heart out and letting the contents of your chest spill to your feet, and then having to lie alone in that mess.
Naked to the bone, being as vulnerable as can be.
Because you have to.
Because you need your own vulnerability more than anyone else’s.
To know who you are and where you’re going, and finding out what you need to give up so you’re no longer a prisoner to the pieces of you that weigh you down and keep you from moving on. Because you will make yourself sick if you don’t, even though you’re ill when you do. Because sometimes, we forget. We forget how much the world can hurt. It hurts the people we love, and the people we don’t, and the people just caught in the middle, even the people who would give anything to just never, ever, ever, never get hurt again.
Because the hurt can’t be avoided.
It’s just coming at us, and it can’t stop. It’s in us and can’t be seen. It lies next to us in the dark waiting. And sometimes, it just doesn’t come at all. Sometimes it’s a different feeling.
A “thing” if you will.
Something that flutters down from nowhere and stays just long enough to give us hope.
And sometimes, barely, and rarely, we get a break.
Just when we need it most.
When we least expect it.
When we’re most vulnerable.
Without vulnerability you will never be able to see your secret heart, or your hidden self. With vulnerability you will finally see that you are human.
Never be afraid, and even if you are, do not regret it. Do not be embarrassed by it.
It’s okay that you have a million contradicting feelings at once, and it’s okay to be afraid of losing your thoughts before you can give them to someone.
It’s okay to be afraid that you’ll get lost in that someone.
Maybe you’re afraid that your heart and faults and flaws are on your sleeve and theirs aren’t. Maybe you’re afraid that you want to be a better person, and they don’t. And maybe you are always honest with yourself, but they aren’t.
It’s okay, because nothing that is worth it has ever come easy.
everything will be alright, as long as we don’t forget.